Fate Never Felt So Good Especially In This Town

Short Stories, True Stories (English)

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A true short story I'm tinkering with about my past...which was rough.

Everything is different when you've got the cold taste of a steel between your teeth.  Your lips wrapped around the cold casing of the 9mm; you think fast.

Everyone always talks about what drug they took that gave them the best high, but this was nothing like that.  This feeling surpassed any anything I had felt up to that moment by far...and then I pulled the trigger.

I heard a click, but nothing happened.  Fate had spoken, the gun wasn't loaded...and God well he just proved to me his fucking existence.  Maybe I was destined for greatness, maybe there was something important for me...or maybe just maybe it was sheer dumb luck.

They say you always get a 2nd chance, this was my 3rd or 4th by now.  Who knows, who cares?  All I knew was that day I became a believer of what I'm still not sure of exactly.  I do know one thing, someone is watching over me.

I am not one of those simple kind of people.  Lying with the man of my dreams after making love to him for the first time made me tear up.  I'm sensitive, but not weak.  I have a hard shell to crack into, my husband being the only man whoever could.  Once you're in though, let's just say it's hard to get out.

My theory is there are two kinds of people in the world: people who think like me, who like to live fast and hard with no regrets or shame within certain limits and people who wish they could live like that.  The question is, where do you think you fall?  Are either of those choices even good choices?  How would you know?  The biggest question of all...do you want to know?

Some people spend their whole lives being way too careful and some aren't careful enough.  I know what you're thinking, "Why does it have to be all or nothing?  Certainly things can't be that black and white.  Isn't there any grey?"  I'm afraid, through my experiences I've learned that's just how life is.  From being a person floundering through life to a wife and mother...I still know that's just how life fucking is.  You're either living or dying, once I chose death now I choose life...didn't change how I truly operate, I still live everyday like it's my last.  My advice, choose wisely.

I always thought I was taking the easy way out but damn was I wrong.

Where I grew up is a complex town.  Most people who come here get swallowed up in the nothingness if they let it.  It's a town that truly never sleeps, especially for how small it is.  It's a historic town...but that doesn't even matter.  Not in this narrative, it means nothing to me.  Some people are proud to be from here...so much pride for a town that's falling to pieces in a state that's literally in shambles.  I ended up back here, giving birth to my son here, living the first year as a wife and mother here.  Now, we're crawling the walls and struggling looking for any options to get the hell out.  Move to a peaceful place we can settle and grow our new life from the ground up.  We won't get swallowed, we will make it out.  Don't let a place or person choose your fate.  You're in control of your life...question is what are YOU going to do about it?

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    Kelly Miracle

    if you like my work there's tons more coming follow me and I'll look at your work!

    on May 09, 2017
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    Kelly Miracle

    thank you, I've got a lot more I'm putting up today!

    on May 09, 2017
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    maryam 2222

    you just blowed my mind away

    on May 08, 2017

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